How It Would Be lyrics - Life of Agony song

[Lyrics by - Keith Caputo]
[Music by - Keith Caputo]

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around
The type of talk
The relationships we could have had
The three of us
Me, you, and dad
My mouth went dry
My stomach felt queasy too
So empty and scared
It's all because of you
A dead body that turned out not to be dead
No one understands
Wish I really knew what happened to my mom
Because my family
They told me nothing but lies
They figured if they just told me the truth
I'd break down and cry
Feel betrayed and hurt
Profoundly insecure
Want to know ten times on Heaven's door
Still suffering from old emotional wounds
I was getting worse
Can't depend on them and their lies
Why did she leave?
How did she die?
And when it gets colder outside
I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
Wanna go visit her grave
Because it's been such a long, long time
Want to pick a peach rose
and rest it on its side
Say a prayer even though I don't believe
And say goodbye
Don't get me wrong
I have a mind to keep me strong
But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong
And how she's dead and gone
Don't think anyone thinks
Of you as much as I do